I had a series of interesting dreams last night. Most likely because I spent so much time with the Bo Staff right before going to bed, but I had extremely vivid dreams about what direction I am headed. Some of them seemed almost supernatural, which I was fine with. It was exciting to imagine myself the way my mind obviously decided to imagine me while I was asleep. In the dream I was spinning a staff and spinning it incredibly fast. Faster than I ever thought was even possible. I was able to deflect a blunt arrow shot directly at me and have its trajectory completely thrown off with my staff. It was really exciting to see.
In another dream I had I was wielding a katana and was on the show mythbusters. They were conducting an experiment on the human reaction time and shooting a bullet next to me. The object of the experiment was to chop the bullet in half. In this dream I managed to chop the bullet in half, but the bullet also shattered the sword I used. I quickly deflected the shard right by my head with the remains of the katana I was still holding.
What do these dreams mean? I have no idea. What I do know is that they allowed me to wake up and feel powerful. Is it truly possible to do the things I witnessed in my dream? Who knows. Logic would tell us that it is impossible for a human being to not only perceive a bullet being shot, but to react and somehow swing a sword along its path would be highly improbable. Is it possible though? Why not.
I'm talking about these dreams because they enabled me to have an amazing day in the gym. Like I said, I woke up feeling powerful and that power continued in me throughout the day. Don't just ignore your dreams. Try to remember them. Who knows if one day they will become a reality?
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Day 6: Training
Yesterday was another great day. I originally slept in and missed my workout time, but fortunately a friend messaged me in the afternoon and I was able to go and help her train at another gym. The workout was perfect. For the first time, I really feel like my body is adapting to the strains I put it through on a daily basis. I taught some elements of my circuit to her and that allowed me to have a perfect workout!
When I got home after the gym, of course I had to pick up my bo staff. We've been having issues with some of the roommates at my house, so our electricity was shut off for a day, so I had no lighting in my backyard. Rather than call it a night when the lights went out, I decided to go out to the fields by my house which were lit up from the stadium lights and some lights from the tennis courts. I spent a good 2 hours spinning my Bo Staff and I have to say, it is still just absolutely amazing. Everyday I can feel my hands adapt more, my dexterity is increasing, my stamina is increasing, my strength is increasing, my timing is increasing. It is one thing to say "My goal is to wake up stronger today than I was yesterday." and totally different to act upon it. I finally feel like I am truly acting upon it. The progress I have made in such a short amount of time proves testament to that.
Now that I'm grasping the spins more and making them much more fluid, I've been trying to make the whole ordeal more practical. I've been trying to imagine how I would use my staff if an opponent was standing in front of me. I believe spinning is mostly for distracting the opponent, as the force generated from the hand positions required to spin efficiently isn't nearly enough to truly damage an opponent. So rather than spin and spin and spin and then get into my stance and attack, I've been working on spins and fluidly making them into attacks. Concepts like this are especially difficult to type and further proves that I absolutely need to start adding videos to these posts. Just bare with me, I promise I will get things more organized and like my training this site too will be more fluid. Back to my point though. I believe spinning can be incorporated into attacks as long as it is used for deflective purposes or for distractions, which it appears to do both quite well. I could only imagine how much more effective the spins would be if there was a spear tip fastened to the staff, it would keep your opponent guessing as to whether or not you are going to strike with the tip.
I've also lately been feeling like staff spins have a supplemental purpose as well. Although the training can make you spin a staff quite fast, the added bonuses it gives to proper stance and defensive postures seem even more worth it. I can almost imagine it like the karate kid wax on wax off. Although I am spinning a staff and becoming quite proficient at it, I can see that if I was bare handed, many of the maneuvers I do with my hands would be effective against an opponents incoming attacks too. Whether it be a weapon or unarmed combat, I feel that there is potential to block and deflect many different abilities based on the simple principles of spinning.
Soon I will post videos of the transitions I am talking about. Like I say though, what I may show on here isn't necessarily something that should be copied or that is effective. This is my own training based on how I feel while I hold a weapon. What works for me, might not necessarily work for you. Go out and experiment. Have fun with it!
When I got home after the gym, of course I had to pick up my bo staff. We've been having issues with some of the roommates at my house, so our electricity was shut off for a day, so I had no lighting in my backyard. Rather than call it a night when the lights went out, I decided to go out to the fields by my house which were lit up from the stadium lights and some lights from the tennis courts. I spent a good 2 hours spinning my Bo Staff and I have to say, it is still just absolutely amazing. Everyday I can feel my hands adapt more, my dexterity is increasing, my stamina is increasing, my strength is increasing, my timing is increasing. It is one thing to say "My goal is to wake up stronger today than I was yesterday." and totally different to act upon it. I finally feel like I am truly acting upon it. The progress I have made in such a short amount of time proves testament to that.
Now that I'm grasping the spins more and making them much more fluid, I've been trying to make the whole ordeal more practical. I've been trying to imagine how I would use my staff if an opponent was standing in front of me. I believe spinning is mostly for distracting the opponent, as the force generated from the hand positions required to spin efficiently isn't nearly enough to truly damage an opponent. So rather than spin and spin and spin and then get into my stance and attack, I've been working on spins and fluidly making them into attacks. Concepts like this are especially difficult to type and further proves that I absolutely need to start adding videos to these posts. Just bare with me, I promise I will get things more organized and like my training this site too will be more fluid. Back to my point though. I believe spinning can be incorporated into attacks as long as it is used for deflective purposes or for distractions, which it appears to do both quite well. I could only imagine how much more effective the spins would be if there was a spear tip fastened to the staff, it would keep your opponent guessing as to whether or not you are going to strike with the tip.
I've also lately been feeling like staff spins have a supplemental purpose as well. Although the training can make you spin a staff quite fast, the added bonuses it gives to proper stance and defensive postures seem even more worth it. I can almost imagine it like the karate kid wax on wax off. Although I am spinning a staff and becoming quite proficient at it, I can see that if I was bare handed, many of the maneuvers I do with my hands would be effective against an opponents incoming attacks too. Whether it be a weapon or unarmed combat, I feel that there is potential to block and deflect many different abilities based on the simple principles of spinning.
Soon I will post videos of the transitions I am talking about. Like I say though, what I may show on here isn't necessarily something that should be copied or that is effective. This is my own training based on how I feel while I hold a weapon. What works for me, might not necessarily work for you. Go out and experiment. Have fun with it!
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Day 5: Training
Training the past few days has been mostly dedicated to my Bo Staff. I have really fallen in love with it, which is strange for me because I normally would hate something that I didn't think was effective. Training with the Bo Staff has taught me a lot about the weapon, but also a lot about myself. I had this preconceived notion that this staff was simple and mostly for showmanship, something I would never consider myself interested in, but sure enough it turns out it has been one of my favorite things so far. Although it is a simple piece of wood, it has so much functionality to it. It is effective as a weapon, as a support for working on kicks, as a training tool for building fast twitch muscle movements, it has greatly enhanced my forearm training, and the list goes on and on. It's complex even though its appearance is misleading, which made me stop to think. It makes me wonder about my past... as a person who used to go around with similar preconceived notions, how many opportunities did I pass up on life? How many people/experiences did I not give a chance because of my own self disillusions? It's something I always have thought about, yet something I rarely take the time to really act upon. Training with the staff has just come to show me that I of course don't know everything and like I said previously with weapons training, you have to approach it with a child like wonder. Just yesterday I saw two kids laughing hysterically holding a stick and swinging it at a bush, like it was the most fun they had ever had. While I was sitting in my backyard spinning my Bo Staff and watching and listening to these kids, I realized that while I am training I am doing just that. I am laughing and loving every minute of it. I need to approach life in the same way. Rather than go around thinking I know what I'm talking about and thinking I know how to judge others, I need to approach each opportunity with the same child like wonder. Who knows what experiences await outside of the normal realm of experiences I have had.
The main things I have been working on with the Bo Staff are spins and attacks. My spins are coming along extremely fast, which was a little surprising for me. I feel very confident holding the staff now and just want to keep spinning everything I see! It really is a great feeling and I highly recommend if you have never used a Bo Staff before, you should consider picking one up and just twirling it around. It will unlock this feeling inside of you that you might have forgotten! I'm beginning to increase the velocity of my spins and adding more complex movements to them as well. The greatest aspect of training with them though is it unlocks some core muscles that don't necessarily normally get activated. Some of the spins require core and shoulder movement only, while the hands are more of a fulcrum for the staff to spin on. If you have trouble keeping up with your ab exercise routine, this will help make up for it and perhaps even be able to supplement some of them. Besides spins, I also came to the conclusion that the Bo Staff hasn't been used as effectively as it could, so part of my experimentation is based on how to strike with it. Most people hold the staff like a baseball bat and attempt to strike through the target. The two biggest problems with this mentality are A.) The staff isn't made of a hardwood, so it is flexible and can be broken and B.) The staff doesn't possess all the weight at the striking end, it is equally distributed throughout the staff. Well, why are these even an issue? Both of these are issues, because as the velocity of the staff increases it is not solid like a bat, the staff actually bends. If the staff can be bent while swinging forward, that also means the staff can also be bent by swinging backwards. That simply means that with proper timing and knowledge of how far the staff can bend, you essentially should be able to reverse direction at the moment before impact and whip all the energy directly into the target. Doing so would eliminate the probability of breaking the staff and also ensure a more devastating blow. The reason the staff breaks when it is held like a baseball bat is simply because of the force exerted back onto the staff by the bag/target/person you are attacking. By channeling all the energy into the bent tip of the staff, there would be no blow back from the target. If you have a staff, give it a shot. I see many people make videos about spinning the staff and show basic forms for attacking, but I have yet to read or see anything that describes an attack in the way I have just said. Once I get my experiments up and running, I will have further proof that what I am saying is true, but until that time you just have to take my word for it. :-)
Although I am making great progress with the Bo Staff, I'm having a hard time applying the same techniques into the 3 sectional staff. When using it, I am attempting to have all three sections move independently while simultaneously generating cyclical force. Most people seem to treat the three sectional as a bo staff, but I believe this is a fatal error. They use similar forms and spins to make the weapon appear fancy, but when it comes to striking they fall into the same issue as the Bo Staff. I will go more into detail about it as I progress my knowledge of physics and get a better feel for the weapon too. My greatest issue with the three sectional now though is simply that I am afraid of it. I try to get it spinning, but every time I am afraid I will hit myself in the head or the shin or some other vulnerable body parts. I think that is the greatest challenge this weapon possesses. Controlling it isn't that difficult, but controlling your own fear is always challenging. Even though I have hit myself in the head at full spin and hit myself in the leg with the recoil off my heavy bag, I still am hesitant as I try to spin it. I'm sure as I gain more confidence in my Bo Staff spins, that the fear from the three sectional will be overcome by my confidence in my ability. Once I overcome my fear and begin using the three sectional more effectively, I will discuss the mindset that I have while I spin it, what I think about, how I feel, what I do with my hands. I will go into great detail about it and how I overcame the problems I just discussed and hopefully that will help someone reading this overcome their fear too!
Strangely enough I have been so focused on my staffs that I haven't really had much time for working on my punches and kicks. Today I resume my iron palm training, which I will create a section for as well on here, so that should help get me back into the swing of things. But even though I haven't been working on my punch and kicks, like I have said before I believe if you are using weapons as extensions of yourself, then even without realizing it you are strengthening your forms without even realizing it. My balance is improving, my form is improving, everything is improving.
The sections are still a little too generalized for my liking, so I am looking into creating more individual blog posts focused on each aspect of my training. I've also started making some videos of my staff handling and such, so I will be possibly posting them on here too. I will soon be uploading pictures of my training and once I get my physics experimentation set up I will be creating a section on here to document that too. I have so much excitement now for everything I am doing, each new thing I learn further increases my passion for doing what I do. I hope to inspire you to find this feeling as well, no matter how you apply it to your own life.
The main things I have been working on with the Bo Staff are spins and attacks. My spins are coming along extremely fast, which was a little surprising for me. I feel very confident holding the staff now and just want to keep spinning everything I see! It really is a great feeling and I highly recommend if you have never used a Bo Staff before, you should consider picking one up and just twirling it around. It will unlock this feeling inside of you that you might have forgotten! I'm beginning to increase the velocity of my spins and adding more complex movements to them as well. The greatest aspect of training with them though is it unlocks some core muscles that don't necessarily normally get activated. Some of the spins require core and shoulder movement only, while the hands are more of a fulcrum for the staff to spin on. If you have trouble keeping up with your ab exercise routine, this will help make up for it and perhaps even be able to supplement some of them. Besides spins, I also came to the conclusion that the Bo Staff hasn't been used as effectively as it could, so part of my experimentation is based on how to strike with it. Most people hold the staff like a baseball bat and attempt to strike through the target. The two biggest problems with this mentality are A.) The staff isn't made of a hardwood, so it is flexible and can be broken and B.) The staff doesn't possess all the weight at the striking end, it is equally distributed throughout the staff. Well, why are these even an issue? Both of these are issues, because as the velocity of the staff increases it is not solid like a bat, the staff actually bends. If the staff can be bent while swinging forward, that also means the staff can also be bent by swinging backwards. That simply means that with proper timing and knowledge of how far the staff can bend, you essentially should be able to reverse direction at the moment before impact and whip all the energy directly into the target. Doing so would eliminate the probability of breaking the staff and also ensure a more devastating blow. The reason the staff breaks when it is held like a baseball bat is simply because of the force exerted back onto the staff by the bag/target/person you are attacking. By channeling all the energy into the bent tip of the staff, there would be no blow back from the target. If you have a staff, give it a shot. I see many people make videos about spinning the staff and show basic forms for attacking, but I have yet to read or see anything that describes an attack in the way I have just said. Once I get my experiments up and running, I will have further proof that what I am saying is true, but until that time you just have to take my word for it. :-)
Although I am making great progress with the Bo Staff, I'm having a hard time applying the same techniques into the 3 sectional staff. When using it, I am attempting to have all three sections move independently while simultaneously generating cyclical force. Most people seem to treat the three sectional as a bo staff, but I believe this is a fatal error. They use similar forms and spins to make the weapon appear fancy, but when it comes to striking they fall into the same issue as the Bo Staff. I will go more into detail about it as I progress my knowledge of physics and get a better feel for the weapon too. My greatest issue with the three sectional now though is simply that I am afraid of it. I try to get it spinning, but every time I am afraid I will hit myself in the head or the shin or some other vulnerable body parts. I think that is the greatest challenge this weapon possesses. Controlling it isn't that difficult, but controlling your own fear is always challenging. Even though I have hit myself in the head at full spin and hit myself in the leg with the recoil off my heavy bag, I still am hesitant as I try to spin it. I'm sure as I gain more confidence in my Bo Staff spins, that the fear from the three sectional will be overcome by my confidence in my ability. Once I overcome my fear and begin using the three sectional more effectively, I will discuss the mindset that I have while I spin it, what I think about, how I feel, what I do with my hands. I will go into great detail about it and how I overcame the problems I just discussed and hopefully that will help someone reading this overcome their fear too!
Strangely enough I have been so focused on my staffs that I haven't really had much time for working on my punches and kicks. Today I resume my iron palm training, which I will create a section for as well on here, so that should help get me back into the swing of things. But even though I haven't been working on my punch and kicks, like I have said before I believe if you are using weapons as extensions of yourself, then even without realizing it you are strengthening your forms without even realizing it. My balance is improving, my form is improving, everything is improving.
The sections are still a little too generalized for my liking, so I am looking into creating more individual blog posts focused on each aspect of my training. I've also started making some videos of my staff handling and such, so I will be possibly posting them on here too. I will soon be uploading pictures of my training and once I get my physics experimentation set up I will be creating a section on here to document that too. I have so much excitement now for everything I am doing, each new thing I learn further increases my passion for doing what I do. I hope to inspire you to find this feeling as well, no matter how you apply it to your own life.
Day 5: Thoughts
I started writing a blog about how martial arts weapon training has been lost on modern day people, but I decided not to publish it yet as I didn't have all the facts. Rather than making assumptions, I began studying physics and that's what I have been doing for the past few days. I've been thinking about the physics that goes into the human body as well as into the weapons that I have been training with. Although I have a better understanding about the concepts I began describing in my unpublished post, I still don't feel like I have enough information to post my findings. Therefore I decided to begin experimenting in my backyard so I can prove the most efficient and powerful ways to use my weapons. From everything I read and see online about different weapons, it's like somehow this basic understanding of how different weapon types work was somehow lost or misinterpreted. Essentially my goal is to figure out the best way to wield each weapon using the scientific method and prove exactly how powerful certain weapons can be and how many of the traditional training routines can be misleading to a martial artist.
Moving on from that topic, I've still been working on my handwriting. It is starting to come along quite well actually. To be honest, I am surprised how easy it has been to change the way I have been writing since I first learned cursive in 3rd grade. Just spending 15-30mins a day working on some simple drills has had some dramatic improvements. I'm starting to feel more of a flow as I write and my hands get less tiresome.
I've been thinking a lot about my training and how I want to approach the mental aspect of it. Although I intended on making a main section of this blog to be about qi gong training, because I have been oversleeping it has been an issue for me to begin the training. My first session and experience with it was quite awe inspiring, but since then I have been struggling to accomplish this task in the morning. Even though I have this mentality where I want to make myself the strongest person I can, I still lack that early morning motivation. I feel getting a good morning routine in will really help make a big difference. The issue is following that routine. Getting to sleep at the same time should hopefully help make a difference!
That is my objective for today. Begin planning out my days more efficiently and effectively. I believe that is the only way I will be able to accomplish all that I have going on in my mind.
Moving on from that topic, I've still been working on my handwriting. It is starting to come along quite well actually. To be honest, I am surprised how easy it has been to change the way I have been writing since I first learned cursive in 3rd grade. Just spending 15-30mins a day working on some simple drills has had some dramatic improvements. I'm starting to feel more of a flow as I write and my hands get less tiresome.
I've been thinking a lot about my training and how I want to approach the mental aspect of it. Although I intended on making a main section of this blog to be about qi gong training, because I have been oversleeping it has been an issue for me to begin the training. My first session and experience with it was quite awe inspiring, but since then I have been struggling to accomplish this task in the morning. Even though I have this mentality where I want to make myself the strongest person I can, I still lack that early morning motivation. I feel getting a good morning routine in will really help make a big difference. The issue is following that routine. Getting to sleep at the same time should hopefully help make a difference!
That is my objective for today. Begin planning out my days more efficiently and effectively. I believe that is the only way I will be able to accomplish all that I have going on in my mind.
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Day 4: Thoughts
I spent most of the day thinking about martial arts and how I can apply how I learn it to other forms of art as well. I looked up a few videos online about how to improve my penmanship and began working on that quite intensely. I never thought I could be so focused on something I used to consider so basic, but once I put my mind to it suddenly I gained motivation. In the video, the author of the lesson talks about how when teaching yourself how to write better, the best way is through writing words that are meaningful to you so that you will not get bored or feel like what you are doing is work. Of course, me being the person that I am, I instantly took this as an opportunity to improve my Les Miserable addiction even more and began writing some of my favorite songs. While writing them, I realized even more things. I realized that how my brain works while writing is very similar to how it works while I train. Even though I have the songs from Les Miserables memorized word for word, when it came to writing them while I recited them, I soon was making many mistakes. The harder I thought about every single word, the more I seemed to struggle with producing the words. Even with the song playing on youtube, I found myself having to continuously loop parts of the song over and over again. So I had an idea. Rather than continuously repeat the music over and over again, I would just listen to one word at a time and then try to write as many words I knew after that. I feel this helped my retention go up quite substantially too. It is interesting to think about though and why I feel it applies to martial arts too. Think about it, I am fairly confident that I know every song word for word, but when I am listening to the music playing it is so much easier to recite then when there is nothing but me trying to produce the music in my head. This tells me that even though I have something memorized, certain indicators can prove beneficial to helping me recite it and perform it 100% accurately. Certain elements of timing, rhythm, focus, melody, helped my brain activate to the songs I knew it was accustomed to, but take them away and suddenly I am lost.
This can be applied to martial arts in a number of factors. I may know how to throw a punch perfectly, I have the form down, my body is physically at its highest possible peak for fighting (I wish), and I am conditioned by use of my heavy bag on how to correctly apply angles and timing and force to maximize my damage on the target. What would happen if the heavy bag was taken away? What if a smaller bag was placed in front of me? What if a tennis ball was tied from a tree branch on a rope instead? Would I still throw the perfect punch? Would I still feel powerful? This is what I mean by indicators and essentially why sparring becomes such an integral part of training for modern day fighters. In theory, I might be able to throw the perfect punch, have beautiful form and knockout power, but what happens when another person is standing in front of me. Suddenly, my instinct kicks in, my sympathetic nervous system takes over and my hands become a foreign object to me. All theory and practice is thrown out the window. All that timing and execution is thrown off, this object doesn't move like the bag I'm accustomed to, this object is intent on hurting me, attacking me, possibly killing me. You have to see an opponent as not an opponent, but as a part of the art. Without the concept of an opponent, there is no martial arts. Understanding their timing, their rhythm, size, style, balance, and using your training to overcome that, to find weaknesses, to set the rhythm, that's what fighting is all about. Just like I couldn't remember the lyrics to my favorite songs without music, I don't believe I would be able to recall my training on a target without the "music" it is a part of. I cannot possibly imagine punching an opponent without sparring. The more I think about it, the more I feel I need to add sparring into my training. The only question is, who will I find to spar with?
Alan Watts in one of his audio discussions or books talked about how music isn't beautiful to us because of the sound, it is beautiful because of the pauses in between the sound. We feel the beauty is in the sound, but in reality the beauty is in the spaces between the sounds and the change in rhythm and timing are what make music tolerable to us. Take any note and play it without pause and it would sound atrocious, the same I feel then must be applied to other art forms.
Is the power in the punch? the form? the timing? the rhythm? Well my friend, these are all important factors. But just like the beauty of music and speech comes from pauses, the beauty of fighting comes in its rhythmic changes as well. Anyone can walk up to a heavy bag and start punching it, we are all born with that innate ability, just like anyone can pick up a guitar and strum it or sit down in front of a piano and strike the keys, but is simply striking the keys or strumming a guitar with no knowledge or training really art? Without time and effort a musical instrument simply cannot be played effectively, the same thing applies to martial arts. To make a routine beautiful, one must think of marital arts in just the same way. When you are sitting in front of that bag, you aren't punching it, you are playing a song, writing poetry, painting a picture, but the pen is your fists, your legs, your very soul is going into it, that is what separates a martial artist from others. It's not brutal, it's beautiful. When I see choreographed fights, it takes away from that beauty for me. It takes away the spontaneity of it all. But I can't judge them anymore than a street performing violinist could judge an orchestra. It is simply the way that these people decided to focus their time and effort. For me though, being the street performer in this analogy, I see martial arts quite differently. It's a personal experience, something that is shown not through choreographed dance, but through practical application and technique. It's showing people that mastery of timing, rhythm, speed, tempo, power, can all be applied to everything I do in my life and the only real way to test that power is through actual competition. I could sit in my backyard and punch my heavy bag every single day for 20 years, but that doesn't mean I would have the ability to truly fight.
The point I'm trying to make isn't that if you are a pianist that you must go up against another pianist and try to outdo them in performance, that is impractical and foolish, I'm simply stating that for me, martial arts is the ultimate test, the ultimate expression. It is the ultimate expression of the human body because it applies all the same rules as all other forms of art, but to truly perfect it you have to put your life on the line, awaken the primal forces inside of you and dance with a real opponent.
This can be applied to martial arts in a number of factors. I may know how to throw a punch perfectly, I have the form down, my body is physically at its highest possible peak for fighting (I wish), and I am conditioned by use of my heavy bag on how to correctly apply angles and timing and force to maximize my damage on the target. What would happen if the heavy bag was taken away? What if a smaller bag was placed in front of me? What if a tennis ball was tied from a tree branch on a rope instead? Would I still throw the perfect punch? Would I still feel powerful? This is what I mean by indicators and essentially why sparring becomes such an integral part of training for modern day fighters. In theory, I might be able to throw the perfect punch, have beautiful form and knockout power, but what happens when another person is standing in front of me. Suddenly, my instinct kicks in, my sympathetic nervous system takes over and my hands become a foreign object to me. All theory and practice is thrown out the window. All that timing and execution is thrown off, this object doesn't move like the bag I'm accustomed to, this object is intent on hurting me, attacking me, possibly killing me. You have to see an opponent as not an opponent, but as a part of the art. Without the concept of an opponent, there is no martial arts. Understanding their timing, their rhythm, size, style, balance, and using your training to overcome that, to find weaknesses, to set the rhythm, that's what fighting is all about. Just like I couldn't remember the lyrics to my favorite songs without music, I don't believe I would be able to recall my training on a target without the "music" it is a part of. I cannot possibly imagine punching an opponent without sparring. The more I think about it, the more I feel I need to add sparring into my training. The only question is, who will I find to spar with?
Alan Watts in one of his audio discussions or books talked about how music isn't beautiful to us because of the sound, it is beautiful because of the pauses in between the sound. We feel the beauty is in the sound, but in reality the beauty is in the spaces between the sounds and the change in rhythm and timing are what make music tolerable to us. Take any note and play it without pause and it would sound atrocious, the same I feel then must be applied to other art forms.
Is the power in the punch? the form? the timing? the rhythm? Well my friend, these are all important factors. But just like the beauty of music and speech comes from pauses, the beauty of fighting comes in its rhythmic changes as well. Anyone can walk up to a heavy bag and start punching it, we are all born with that innate ability, just like anyone can pick up a guitar and strum it or sit down in front of a piano and strike the keys, but is simply striking the keys or strumming a guitar with no knowledge or training really art? Without time and effort a musical instrument simply cannot be played effectively, the same thing applies to martial arts. To make a routine beautiful, one must think of marital arts in just the same way. When you are sitting in front of that bag, you aren't punching it, you are playing a song, writing poetry, painting a picture, but the pen is your fists, your legs, your very soul is going into it, that is what separates a martial artist from others. It's not brutal, it's beautiful. When I see choreographed fights, it takes away from that beauty for me. It takes away the spontaneity of it all. But I can't judge them anymore than a street performing violinist could judge an orchestra. It is simply the way that these people decided to focus their time and effort. For me though, being the street performer in this analogy, I see martial arts quite differently. It's a personal experience, something that is shown not through choreographed dance, but through practical application and technique. It's showing people that mastery of timing, rhythm, speed, tempo, power, can all be applied to everything I do in my life and the only real way to test that power is through actual competition. I could sit in my backyard and punch my heavy bag every single day for 20 years, but that doesn't mean I would have the ability to truly fight.
The point I'm trying to make isn't that if you are a pianist that you must go up against another pianist and try to outdo them in performance, that is impractical and foolish, I'm simply stating that for me, martial arts is the ultimate test, the ultimate expression. It is the ultimate expression of the human body because it applies all the same rules as all other forms of art, but to truly perfect it you have to put your life on the line, awaken the primal forces inside of you and dance with a real opponent.
Friday, July 19, 2013
Day 3: Training
Oversleeping caused me to be a little too tired to make it into the gym today. Normally this would bother me, but yesterday's workout was fairly intense so I decided not to be too hard on myself. I did my normal gym routine yesterday, even though when I got to the gym I had this feeling like I hadn't been there in a few days so I better take it slow. Quickly I came to my senses though and told myself no way was I going to take it easy. That's what I'm talking about when I say the mind is so powerful in these situations. Had I kept the same attitude I had upon entering the gym, I would have spent my entire time in the gym feeling weak and asking myself why I even came in. That same thing I feel can be applied to everything. Go into work with a bad attitude and think you are going to have a bad day and sure enough you are going to find ways to have a bad day. The mind is so powerful in that regard and it is so easy to get caught up in it!
My lifts want great and lately I've been really obsessed with my Bo staff. I never thought I would enjoy the Bo staff because I am a very practical person. I don't like forms I don't like showmanship, I want to learn how to fight with a weapon or with my hands so that if the time ever came I could actually use them. It's a simple concept, but it is also ignorant in a sense. When it comes to the Bo Staff, although I knew it could be swung with tremendous force, the only examples I had ever seen of it was from people doing different forms and routines or spinning it, I never saw a practical example of a fight with it. But, I decided I would go in with an open mind and sure enough the first thing I did when I picked it up was start twirling it in my fingers. Spun it around my back, over my head, in front of me, just loving every second of it. I used it to support my weight and did a nice little Donatello side kick to my heavy bag, it was really a great time. Anything that you can use your imagination with and have fun with to me is the best training tool I can imagine. Just sitting in my yard and spinning it over and over again, dropping it all the time, hitting myself with it occasionally and not even caring at all, absolutely fantastic.
Because I am very interested in forearm training and it is probably the one muscle group that I focus on more than anything, I was a little surprised to see how effective the Bo Staff was at tiring out my forearms. Suddenly I had a realization that this weapon I am having so much fun with, now indeed would serve a very practical purpose. I'm always looking for new ways to improve my forearm training and this was exactly what I was looking for. Although the staff itself isn't very heavy, it is simple enough to make it much more effective by either using a heavier material or adding weight to the ends of the staff. I decided while I was at the gym that I would try the same spins I was learning on my staff with one of those weighted rods they have there. I picked up a 9 lbs rod and started spinning it and sure enough it worked perfectly! I kept spinning it and spinning it and spinning it and sure enough after about 10 mins or so my forearms were on fire. Exactly as I hoped. I don't recommend trying this though if you are just beginning to use a Bo Staff or if you have not spent much time in the gym. Like I said, I am absolutely obsessed with hand and forearm training so I had confidence that I wouldn't injure myself, but even I could feel the strain on my shoulders as well as my hands and even a little bit on my elbows.
After getting off work my roommate and I were in my backyard doing a little training together. I'm not yet sure exactly how interested he is in martial arts, but it is nice to have someone to practice with. I continued spinning my Bo Staff and I am starting to get really confident in my spins. That confidence soon came to a halt though upon pulling out my 3 section staff. I attempted the same spins I had been doing somewhat efficiently and realized that somewhat efficiently isn't quite good enough for the 3 section. While I was twirling it above my head, one of the rods managed to spin downward and hit me directly across the back of my head. I was a little dazed, but it wasn't a major injury. I decided to discontinue spinning above my head and instead spin it in front of me. That too proved to be dangerous when it came down and cracked me on my right knee cap. I believe I hit myself about 4 - 5 times last night with the 3 section and a good 2 times with the Bo. I put a little Jow on all the injuries though which I believed helped out a lot!
I will once again highly recommend picking up some Dit Da Jow if you don't already own some. I had never heard of it before and I don't know how I used to live without it. Tigerbalm is worthless in comparison in my opinion and this is coming from someone who used to use tigerbalm almost every day. I hope to start uploading some pictures of my weapons and my training area and possibly some videos. Still working those details out.
Once I get off work it's back to my backyard again! Hopefully tonight there will be less injuries, although it will make for some exciting stories. As the training progresses the blog might have to be re-titled "The Path of Continuous Injury."
My lifts want great and lately I've been really obsessed with my Bo staff. I never thought I would enjoy the Bo staff because I am a very practical person. I don't like forms I don't like showmanship, I want to learn how to fight with a weapon or with my hands so that if the time ever came I could actually use them. It's a simple concept, but it is also ignorant in a sense. When it comes to the Bo Staff, although I knew it could be swung with tremendous force, the only examples I had ever seen of it was from people doing different forms and routines or spinning it, I never saw a practical example of a fight with it. But, I decided I would go in with an open mind and sure enough the first thing I did when I picked it up was start twirling it in my fingers. Spun it around my back, over my head, in front of me, just loving every second of it. I used it to support my weight and did a nice little Donatello side kick to my heavy bag, it was really a great time. Anything that you can use your imagination with and have fun with to me is the best training tool I can imagine. Just sitting in my yard and spinning it over and over again, dropping it all the time, hitting myself with it occasionally and not even caring at all, absolutely fantastic.
Because I am very interested in forearm training and it is probably the one muscle group that I focus on more than anything, I was a little surprised to see how effective the Bo Staff was at tiring out my forearms. Suddenly I had a realization that this weapon I am having so much fun with, now indeed would serve a very practical purpose. I'm always looking for new ways to improve my forearm training and this was exactly what I was looking for. Although the staff itself isn't very heavy, it is simple enough to make it much more effective by either using a heavier material or adding weight to the ends of the staff. I decided while I was at the gym that I would try the same spins I was learning on my staff with one of those weighted rods they have there. I picked up a 9 lbs rod and started spinning it and sure enough it worked perfectly! I kept spinning it and spinning it and spinning it and sure enough after about 10 mins or so my forearms were on fire. Exactly as I hoped. I don't recommend trying this though if you are just beginning to use a Bo Staff or if you have not spent much time in the gym. Like I said, I am absolutely obsessed with hand and forearm training so I had confidence that I wouldn't injure myself, but even I could feel the strain on my shoulders as well as my hands and even a little bit on my elbows.
After getting off work my roommate and I were in my backyard doing a little training together. I'm not yet sure exactly how interested he is in martial arts, but it is nice to have someone to practice with. I continued spinning my Bo Staff and I am starting to get really confident in my spins. That confidence soon came to a halt though upon pulling out my 3 section staff. I attempted the same spins I had been doing somewhat efficiently and realized that somewhat efficiently isn't quite good enough for the 3 section. While I was twirling it above my head, one of the rods managed to spin downward and hit me directly across the back of my head. I was a little dazed, but it wasn't a major injury. I decided to discontinue spinning above my head and instead spin it in front of me. That too proved to be dangerous when it came down and cracked me on my right knee cap. I believe I hit myself about 4 - 5 times last night with the 3 section and a good 2 times with the Bo. I put a little Jow on all the injuries though which I believed helped out a lot!
I will once again highly recommend picking up some Dit Da Jow if you don't already own some. I had never heard of it before and I don't know how I used to live without it. Tigerbalm is worthless in comparison in my opinion and this is coming from someone who used to use tigerbalm almost every day. I hope to start uploading some pictures of my weapons and my training area and possibly some videos. Still working those details out.
Once I get off work it's back to my backyard again! Hopefully tonight there will be less injuries, although it will make for some exciting stories. As the training progresses the blog might have to be re-titled "The Path of Continuous Injury."
Day 3: Thoughts
So what's on my mind for today? All sorts of things as usual. I was extremely tired from the gym last night and from swinging my Bo Staff around. One of my clients was giving me some useful advice about the direction I should take with the blog due to the fact that I haven't really organized it too much yet. It's hard to organize a blog when you lack organization in other aspects of your life. Like I said previously, I still am planning on getting rid of many of my possessions or most of my possessions, I just haven't decided how I want to go about it yet. Do I want to try to sell everything on E-bay, do I want to give it away to friends, give it to the homeless... I'm not sure. You would think the natural order of things would be friends>internet>charity>garbage, but I don't know. A part of me kind of wants to just avoid the hassle of trying to sell it and just give it away, a part of me thinks it would be a nicer way to approach the atypical format of getting rid of stuff.
I've come to realize the problem isn't the desire to really keep everything, it's just that I am quite unorganized so I can tell myself over and over again that I want to get rid of everything, but I will continuously forget or be busy with other things. Not that that is a bad thing at all, I like who I am and I like that my brain is constantly going and sometimes prevents me to accomplish certain things, it definitely keeps thing interesting.
I slept way to long today, it seems I was overly tired from my first day back in the gym in a few days. I'm not really upset with that either, sometimes you just need to relax and recuperate from the previous days exhaustion so I'm glad I could do just that! I'm still trying to figure out what I want to talk about with this blog, do I want to have a thoughts section, to describe how I think and feel during my training or do I want to keep it more just discussion based about how training is going and such. I feel just talking about training though is only one side of the equation, because so much thought and effort goes into what I do, it would be difficult to talk just about training without discussing the psychological and emotional impact the day to day brings.
I guess for now I will continue to keep it with this layout: Training and Thoughts until I can work out how I want everything categorized.
I've come to realize the problem isn't the desire to really keep everything, it's just that I am quite unorganized so I can tell myself over and over again that I want to get rid of everything, but I will continuously forget or be busy with other things. Not that that is a bad thing at all, I like who I am and I like that my brain is constantly going and sometimes prevents me to accomplish certain things, it definitely keeps thing interesting.
I slept way to long today, it seems I was overly tired from my first day back in the gym in a few days. I'm not really upset with that either, sometimes you just need to relax and recuperate from the previous days exhaustion so I'm glad I could do just that! I'm still trying to figure out what I want to talk about with this blog, do I want to have a thoughts section, to describe how I think and feel during my training or do I want to keep it more just discussion based about how training is going and such. I feel just talking about training though is only one side of the equation, because so much thought and effort goes into what I do, it would be difficult to talk just about training without discussing the psychological and emotional impact the day to day brings.
I guess for now I will continue to keep it with this layout: Training and Thoughts until I can work out how I want everything categorized.
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Day 2: Thoughts
I've been thinking about for a long time how I have wanted to work on some key life skills, so today I finally decided to go and do just that. I've always hated how even though I am a fairly fast at typing, I've never been able to type ergonomically or using home row. I decided that because I am going through so many life changes right now, that now would actually be the perfect time to teach myself. One of the main things I'm attempting to do is work more without having my forearms touch anything. This goes for writing, typing, drawing, eating, essentially anything where I would previously rest my arms down, I've decided to keep my arms off of anything. I can feel the burn quite well as this is something that I've never really thought about before, but I think it will really enhance all the aspects of my life. Especially penmanship. I've always always hated my hand writing and I don't necessarily blame my education either, I know I am at fault, but I've always wanted to be able to write pretty words. I've never once wrote on a piece of paper and been like, "Yup, totally proud of this." From my perspective, how do I expect to become this master of life, if I cannot even master holding a pencil? How do I expect to create forms and be the most efficient in my martial arts training, if I cannot even remember how to hold my hands on a keyboard to be efficient in typing. Especially now that I plan to write on this blog continuously, it seems pretty important and a great way to really work on accomplishing this. The blog will help test my patience with keeping my hands aligned and my journal will help me work on my penmanship. That is the best part about this journey. Everything that I do, everything in my daily life I feel I can apply to reaching my goals. Something as simple as writing better with a pencil and paper could give me the confidence I need and the discipline I need for so many other things. I'm really excited about adding this as a part of my training. I will upload pictures into a separate section showing my penmanship progress and also my typing times and scores and such!
Day 2: Training
Training with my 3 section staff last night proved to be just as dangerous as I talked about the day before. As I was attempting to spin it like a bo staff, I didn't respect its power and manage it made me pay for it. The 3rd section of the staff swung down and cracked straight across the shin. I'm lucky though, I purchased some Dit Da Jow just a week ago and I applied it directly over the lump on my leg and rubbed it in for several minutes before going to bed. I assumed when I woke up I was going to have a massive bruise on my shin due to the fact that a fairly large lump had already formed. Shockingly though, the Dit Da Jow did just what it said it would do. When I woke up I looked down at my leg and the swelling was minimal and no bruise has appeared.
I'm fairly certain there should have been a nice big bruise on my shin!
Because today is a Tuesday, I will be going back to the gym for my weight training and then after work I plan on spending a few hours in my backyard again, hopefully not hurting myself anymore. To be honest though, I really love using hard wood weapons because when you make a mistake, you remember that mistake. If I was training with a 3 section staff made out of rubber or some lighter material, I feel it would be much harder to learn from mistakes. Although now that I have this Jow, I do feel like I can be a little reckless and still heal easily, but in reality I should really be more careful!
Today's main focus is stretching, power, and strength. I've had some problems in the past with my squat, so I will be really focusing on my form today. The problem I have is simply that I get so caught up in my head at times, telling myself all sorts of ridiculous things that it very easily impacts my workouts. For instance: My whole life I've been told that bad knees run in my family. Although this is true, I continuously tell myself that. I paint this picture in my head that I have bad knees and that plays through my mind as I place the weight on my back. Thinking like that just seems to doom me to failure and I believe is one of the reasons why I have trouble progressing my squat. I also have had some lower back problems in the past, so when I get up to the rack I sometimes am nervous about that too. What martial arts teaches me though is quite simple. The more I tense up, the more I think about failure, the more I think and think and think, the more likely I am to fail. If I get up to the weight and rather than thinking about it, I just visualize perfect form and then just go with it, I find I feel much more natural. It's so easy to get caught up in mind games about something so simple. If you have the same problem as me, give it a shot. Always visualize yourself accomplishing whatever it is you are doing, you should see dramatic improvement!
One of my greatest weaknesses right now is my lack of flexibility. I've always wanted to be able to do a split, but I've never really seriously worked on my flexibility. If I were to attempt a split... ouch, it would not be a pretty sight! I also have problems with my kicks. It's difficult to kick higher then a certain point, which bothers me. How can I solve this problem? Am I sure I'm not just genetically predisposition to never be flexible? Am I too old to start flexibility training? I really don't think so. I'm going to track my progress with my stretching as well as the height I can kick at and the power I can generate with my kicks on either a daily or weekly basis. I'll make a page for it, so if you are interested in what I do and how long it takes to progress, feel free to check it out! I haven't decided exactly how I will go about measuring my stretching progress, but I think I will go off pictures, videos, and perhaps create one of those measurement boards that I can touch my fingertips to and see the actual measurable distance.
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Day 1: Training
My training today will consist mostly of weapons. I went out last night to celebrate my good friend's birthday and although I normally don't drink, he made me an offer I couldn't refuse. Dead Guy Ale is just way too good to pass up. But, like what always seems to happen, I overslept, missed my gym time, and ate some crappy food. So that is why I try to keep drinking down to a minimum.
After I get off work, I will go home and begin some more weapons training. Last night, I tested a new 3 section staff that I just purchased over the weekend and really enjoying the way it moves. You really have to appreciate the raw power of this invention and it made me glad I was not the first person who unfortunately happened to face someone wielding one for the first time. It is deceptively powerful and when I say powerful, I mean swing it incorrectly and easily break a bone or much much worse type of powerful. I'm still afraid of it to be honest, even after swinging it around for a few hours and getting the feel for it, I have to respect what it can do. I made one simple mistake and twisted my wrist while I was swinging it over my head and I felt the 3rd section whip and clip the hair on the back of my head, I was very lucky. Had it clipped my head, I would probably still be laying on the ground.
The three section staff is the most unique weapon I've wielded so far. It is scary to use because you can essentially generate the force of. . . say a baseball bat, but at the end of this bat you have a rotating, whipping, solid oak rod. Many people fail to realize the power of nunchaku alone, but with this weapon you are essentially adding the force of a nunchaku to the power of a baseball bat. Unlike other weapons when swung, the only thing keeping the staff looking like a staff is the centripetal force being exerted upon it, which is obviously broken whenever you strike with it. You are essentially dealing with the whiplash of this highly unstable, highly dangerous, highly powerful weapon and it really helps you appreciate the laws of physics. Understanding how the force you apply and based on the angle you apply it is vital in making sure you are not standing in the way when it comes whipping back.Because I spend most of my time using my weapons on my heavy bag, it is continuously swaying. Timing, force, speed, these are all vital concepts to understand while swinging this weapon around.
I hope to one day make some videos as I become more proficient with my weapons, tomorrow I will go into more detail about other weapons I train with too.
After I get off work, I will go home and begin some more weapons training. Last night, I tested a new 3 section staff that I just purchased over the weekend and really enjoying the way it moves. You really have to appreciate the raw power of this invention and it made me glad I was not the first person who unfortunately happened to face someone wielding one for the first time. It is deceptively powerful and when I say powerful, I mean swing it incorrectly and easily break a bone or much much worse type of powerful. I'm still afraid of it to be honest, even after swinging it around for a few hours and getting the feel for it, I have to respect what it can do. I made one simple mistake and twisted my wrist while I was swinging it over my head and I felt the 3rd section whip and clip the hair on the back of my head, I was very lucky. Had it clipped my head, I would probably still be laying on the ground.
The three section staff is the most unique weapon I've wielded so far. It is scary to use because you can essentially generate the force of. . . say a baseball bat, but at the end of this bat you have a rotating, whipping, solid oak rod. Many people fail to realize the power of nunchaku alone, but with this weapon you are essentially adding the force of a nunchaku to the power of a baseball bat. Unlike other weapons when swung, the only thing keeping the staff looking like a staff is the centripetal force being exerted upon it, which is obviously broken whenever you strike with it. You are essentially dealing with the whiplash of this highly unstable, highly dangerous, highly powerful weapon and it really helps you appreciate the laws of physics. Understanding how the force you apply and based on the angle you apply it is vital in making sure you are not standing in the way when it comes whipping back.Because I spend most of my time using my weapons on my heavy bag, it is continuously swaying. Timing, force, speed, these are all vital concepts to understand while swinging this weapon around.
I hope to one day make some videos as I become more proficient with my weapons, tomorrow I will go into more detail about other weapons I train with too.
Day 1: Thoughts
Today was somewhat of a recovery day/thought process day. I've been thinking about how I want to approach my training now and how I want to document what I do. I'm planning on changing my sleep schedule as well as the last few changes I need to make to my daily activities. I've been struggling at work to focus on my writing and training, because I am easily distracted by the TV. At my own house I'm trying to get rid of a lot of the things that have tempted me too.
All these things are easy to think about, but hard to really accomplish. I've wanted to sell my computer for years because that is the greatest time waster by far. Never has anything else had to the ability to call me over to it and waste away 8 to... 40 hours at a time. It doesn't matter how motivated I am to do something, all I have to do is sit down in my computer chair for 10 seconds and in a flash the entire day is gone. The temptation that causes is pretty impressive and I completely admit to the very real fact that I used to have major video game addictions. My friend and I who used to play World of Warcraft together always talk about the "itch" which we solidify by pantomiming putting a needle into our arms. Because in reality, that's what it was. Our brains got a kick off the idea of playing this game and it wasn't actually playing the game that was fun, it was the idea of playing the game. Whenever I stop and look back on what my life was like when I played that game, it always surprises me. The things I neglected...wow, just astonishing. Devoting my life to something so meaningless, years that I can never get back.
All I know is that I am glad that I moved on from that. I have friends who I met through the internet who still play it and I know they must hate it. I guess what I'm saying is, if you play WOW or any other MMO, think about what you strive to accomplish in that game, whether it is to become a PVP god, get all the legendary loot, or beat all that end game content, if that game is taking over your life and you are neglecting yourself over it, find something that can replace it in real life! I 'm a graphics nerd, I love when new technology comes out, I remember when Donkey Kong 64 came out and that was the first time my mind had been blown by video game graphics. With that being said, no matter how good the technology may become, nothing will compare to what the graphics look like in real life. People spend all this time questing, running through forests and talking about how beautiful the game is. Well my friends, go outside, grab a stick, imagine you are the most badass character from any game you have ever played and just experience life out in the woods. I guarantee you that running through the woods and swinging around a stick, using your imagination and taking in the real world, it will be far more satisfying than anything you've ever accomplished in a video game.
Well, I ended up going on quite a rant there, but that is all part of the experience I want to have with writing this blog and with the way I live my life now. If an idea comes to my mind that I am passionate about, I don't have a problem writing about it and stating my opinion on it. No one is reading this right now anyway, so there isn't really anyone to complain about me straying from martial arts.
All these things are easy to think about, but hard to really accomplish. I've wanted to sell my computer for years because that is the greatest time waster by far. Never has anything else had to the ability to call me over to it and waste away 8 to... 40 hours at a time. It doesn't matter how motivated I am to do something, all I have to do is sit down in my computer chair for 10 seconds and in a flash the entire day is gone. The temptation that causes is pretty impressive and I completely admit to the very real fact that I used to have major video game addictions. My friend and I who used to play World of Warcraft together always talk about the "itch" which we solidify by pantomiming putting a needle into our arms. Because in reality, that's what it was. Our brains got a kick off the idea of playing this game and it wasn't actually playing the game that was fun, it was the idea of playing the game. Whenever I stop and look back on what my life was like when I played that game, it always surprises me. The things I neglected...wow, just astonishing. Devoting my life to something so meaningless, years that I can never get back.
All I know is that I am glad that I moved on from that. I have friends who I met through the internet who still play it and I know they must hate it. I guess what I'm saying is, if you play WOW or any other MMO, think about what you strive to accomplish in that game, whether it is to become a PVP god, get all the legendary loot, or beat all that end game content, if that game is taking over your life and you are neglecting yourself over it, find something that can replace it in real life! I 'm a graphics nerd, I love when new technology comes out, I remember when Donkey Kong 64 came out and that was the first time my mind had been blown by video game graphics. With that being said, no matter how good the technology may become, nothing will compare to what the graphics look like in real life. People spend all this time questing, running through forests and talking about how beautiful the game is. Well my friends, go outside, grab a stick, imagine you are the most badass character from any game you have ever played and just experience life out in the woods. I guarantee you that running through the woods and swinging around a stick, using your imagination and taking in the real world, it will be far more satisfying than anything you've ever accomplished in a video game.
Well, I ended up going on quite a rant there, but that is all part of the experience I want to have with writing this blog and with the way I live my life now. If an idea comes to my mind that I am passionate about, I don't have a problem writing about it and stating my opinion on it. No one is reading this right now anyway, so there isn't really anyone to complain about me straying from martial arts.
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Introduction
My name is John Carroll and I have decided to embark on a new journey through life. The main emphasis of this blog is to show other people who I am and what I do and hopefully inspire others!
I will break this site into three main categories:
In each of these categories, there will be subcategories as well, that will go in depth as to what I hope to accomplish along my journey.
First and foremost I am a martial artist. It took me a long time to realize that I was one though. All throughout my life I have been looking for something to define me. Many other people have hobbies, interests in sports, fishing, video games, comic books, and I always wondered what defined me. For the longest time I thought I was a gamer, I played games and I was good at games, but I just couldn't let that be my defining characteristic. So I had to stop and think to myself, "what is it that makes video games so exciting for me?" It took me a long time to realize that what I loved most about games was the competition that came with them and this feeling that I was connected to past human experiences that no longer existed or that were made up. I was always really into fantasy games, I loved the idea of being an ancient warrior or a person capable of wielding magic and the feeling of possessing some power that other people couldn't command. I worked tirelessly spending hours upon hours in these fantasy worlds to become the best I could possibly be and all the time I was neglecting who I actually was in real life. I didn't realize that there were ways to experience what I wanted to become in some fantasy worlds in real life.
That all changed a couple of years ago when I randomly watched a documentary on the life of Bruce Lee. This documentary showed me a person in modern day society who managed to ignore social norms and focus his life on martial arts. He didn't know if he would be successful, how he would earn a living, or what other people thought about him. He was a man with a message and his dream was to share that message with the world. Bruce Lee managed to influence my life dramatically and ultimately that documentary led me to where I am now.
For the longest time I thought what he wanted was for me to become him, as a matter of fact a couple of years ago I bought a domain called becoming Bruce Lee, but I never did anything with it. During that time period I was teaching myself Jeet Kune Do via Bruce Lee books and from watching his movies. I studied the same philosophers he studied, took up his workout routines, bought every book that he wrote, and essentially decided that I was going to become him. Somewhere along the way something tragic happened. After a 2 hour MMA session at my gym, I decided to go lifting at my university's gym and benched without a spotter. My arms were more gassed out than I had thought and I dropped the barbell directly on my head. Although the damage wasn't severe (concussion but no internal bleeding) the emotional impact it had on me caused me to fall out of my path. I feel like that moment was one of those major defining obstacles that I've read about from ancient martial artists. This took place about 15 months ago. Up until about 3 months ago, I had lost all the motivation that was carrying me forward from the incident, my weight jumped from 185 lbs to 285 lbs in just 1 year with the majority of my muscle gone.
Three months ago I was going through my old pictures on my computer and I came across how I looked at my prime, a picture that was taken 3 days before I dropped the weight on my head. From looking at that picture and then taking my shirt off and looking in the mirror, I made up my mind that it was time to change my life. This time though, I felt different than I had on my original journey. I have had multiple epiphanies in the past few months and each one has brought me closer and closer to understanding who I am and who I want to be and what I want to do with my life. I realized that Bruce Lee didn't want to inspire me to become Bruce Lee, Bruce Lee wanted to inspire me to become John Carroll. The best John Carroll that I can become.
The goal of this blog is to show what the human mind, body, and soul are capable of when given the right direction. Everything I post on here will be my opinion, based on what I do on a daily basis. If you randomly stumble upon this page, I hope you stick around for my journey.
Enjoy :-)
I will break this site into three main categories:
- Body
- Mind
- Soul
In each of these categories, there will be subcategories as well, that will go in depth as to what I hope to accomplish along my journey.
First and foremost I am a martial artist. It took me a long time to realize that I was one though. All throughout my life I have been looking for something to define me. Many other people have hobbies, interests in sports, fishing, video games, comic books, and I always wondered what defined me. For the longest time I thought I was a gamer, I played games and I was good at games, but I just couldn't let that be my defining characteristic. So I had to stop and think to myself, "what is it that makes video games so exciting for me?" It took me a long time to realize that what I loved most about games was the competition that came with them and this feeling that I was connected to past human experiences that no longer existed or that were made up. I was always really into fantasy games, I loved the idea of being an ancient warrior or a person capable of wielding magic and the feeling of possessing some power that other people couldn't command. I worked tirelessly spending hours upon hours in these fantasy worlds to become the best I could possibly be and all the time I was neglecting who I actually was in real life. I didn't realize that there were ways to experience what I wanted to become in some fantasy worlds in real life.
That all changed a couple of years ago when I randomly watched a documentary on the life of Bruce Lee. This documentary showed me a person in modern day society who managed to ignore social norms and focus his life on martial arts. He didn't know if he would be successful, how he would earn a living, or what other people thought about him. He was a man with a message and his dream was to share that message with the world. Bruce Lee managed to influence my life dramatically and ultimately that documentary led me to where I am now.
For the longest time I thought what he wanted was for me to become him, as a matter of fact a couple of years ago I bought a domain called becoming Bruce Lee, but I never did anything with it. During that time period I was teaching myself Jeet Kune Do via Bruce Lee books and from watching his movies. I studied the same philosophers he studied, took up his workout routines, bought every book that he wrote, and essentially decided that I was going to become him. Somewhere along the way something tragic happened. After a 2 hour MMA session at my gym, I decided to go lifting at my university's gym and benched without a spotter. My arms were more gassed out than I had thought and I dropped the barbell directly on my head. Although the damage wasn't severe (concussion but no internal bleeding) the emotional impact it had on me caused me to fall out of my path. I feel like that moment was one of those major defining obstacles that I've read about from ancient martial artists. This took place about 15 months ago. Up until about 3 months ago, I had lost all the motivation that was carrying me forward from the incident, my weight jumped from 185 lbs to 285 lbs in just 1 year with the majority of my muscle gone.
Three months ago I was going through my old pictures on my computer and I came across how I looked at my prime, a picture that was taken 3 days before I dropped the weight on my head. From looking at that picture and then taking my shirt off and looking in the mirror, I made up my mind that it was time to change my life. This time though, I felt different than I had on my original journey. I have had multiple epiphanies in the past few months and each one has brought me closer and closer to understanding who I am and who I want to be and what I want to do with my life. I realized that Bruce Lee didn't want to inspire me to become Bruce Lee, Bruce Lee wanted to inspire me to become John Carroll. The best John Carroll that I can become.
The goal of this blog is to show what the human mind, body, and soul are capable of when given the right direction. Everything I post on here will be my opinion, based on what I do on a daily basis. If you randomly stumble upon this page, I hope you stick around for my journey.
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